All this while, i keep questioning myself why am i taking and studying something which i don't have passion in. I cry all night, push my self harder just to keep my self on the track. I push away all those unnecessary feelings aside. Struggle myself in and out. Pray that all that i've learned, i'll understand and pass my exam papers. Be a good student. Be a good daughter of mak and ayah. Be a good adik to all kakak and abang. Be a good friend and soon be a good zaujah and menantu.. insha'allah..
more and more..
the thing is it would never be enough.. instead for striving like crazeyh for 'dunya' you always get 'dunya'.. but if you strive for 'akhirat' you'll get both.
everything need to be balance like 'day and night' , 'moon and stars', 'fiction and fantasy'.. I came across a short well written masterpiece..which made me realize of something which somehow is true. If you say that you have 'passion' in art that doesn't mean that you should neglect the math. it should be balance though. in a good way of balance. Being perfect is not the deal.. but this is eventually how you being a better muslim. :)
p/s : wearing a high heel also need some balance. love you love one. :)